Telling the family..

I said earlier that I would write a new post about this, so here it is. I am very disappointed in the response that I got from my family when they heard what I consider to be great news. With Brenan, I could feel that people were happy for me. I got phone calls asking how I was doing, people stopped by to see if I needed anything... stuff like that. This time, it is like they don't really dare talk about it, because their true feelings might get revealed, and they are not happy about it at all.

I bought Brenan a couple shirts. One has a little alligator with a smaller alligator in its mouth, very cute, and it says "big brother in training". The other one says "This little heartbreaker is going to be a big brother". I love them. I think they are darling! I wrapped them up and had him open them for his birthday. I even read them aloud, but got choked up and couldnt really give details after I read them. It was like I could hear crickets chirping because no one wanted to say anything. My sister in law, who I had already told, clapped and said "Yeah"... but other than that, no one really reacted at all. I get told alot that we don't need another October baby, because we have quite a few on both sides of the family, but I honestly don't care. I don't care if it was born on Christmas!! This is my miracle and I want people to be happy about it... not negative! I am ecstatic, and my husband says he is happy about it as well. As long as it comes out healthy, with all ten toes and all ten fingers, he doesn't care about anything else. He says its up to me if I want to find out the sex or not. I know I will be having another c-section, because of the hospital I will be going to and the doctor I have, but I am ok with that. Its like because I already have one, no one cares that I am going to have another. It upset me, to not have anyone react to it and some of the comments I got. Maybe I am being too sensitive or whatever, but I was really hoping to get some happy thoughts. I even asked my mom later if she had expected that announcement... she said "I wondered... but not really." Nothing about any emotion whatsoever... just nothing. It might be because of the problems I have had with my husband... but if it comes down to it, I can raise two babies just as easy as I could one. I am so happy and so excited about having another baby that I can't even express it. I just wish I had someone else who was as happy about it as I am to share it with. I guess I have Brenan, he is happy! He is the only one I really talk to about the baby anyway.